sick :(

I'M SICK & IT'S ON AND OFF.
it's making me frustrated :(

ytd was really bad. kept coughing, couldn't sleep through the night.
swallowing saliva was really difficult for me..and i still had to swallow,
leaving me with no choices. cause my throat was inflammed badly that
i had to resort to eating both western and chinese medicine.
ate chuan bei pi pa gao then some western inflammatory tablet and lastly,
panadol for fever.

this morning i thought i was totally fine alrdy.
cause i managed to cough out my phlegm.
but little did i know, i was wrong.
after taking a bath, i went with baby to buy bkfast then
came back, ate, and rested.
used computer, played baking life then baby touched my forehead &
he said i might have fever..it was starting to get heated up.
so, baby's mummy checked on me and she said i have slight fever.
:( i seriously hate this feeling. throat super dry. shit ttm lor!


don't even have the mood to revise for tomorrow's common tests.
and tmr is 2 papers..
but luckily i'm kind of prepared for it alrdy..
cos i got that slight confidence in me for those 2 papers.
hopefully nothing goes wrong.



now, i'm having flu, cough, sorethroat and fever.
freak! :(
& baby's mum cooking udon for me..feel really bad to trouble her.
&&& there's curry chicken!!! i want... :(((((

HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY, BABY LENEL! :)

it's been a long time...

my blog's dead..not yet :)


just that the owner has gone MIA due to upcoming common tests :)
haha..neways, i'm back now.

i'm currently craving for so many things!
1) traffic light ice-cream :) the $0.60 or $0.80 one!hehes!!!
2) B&J big tub!
3) picnic at marina barrage with baby...
4) watch the karate kid..but it's always left first few rows. damn!
5) shopping..so so badly!
6) shisha at arab st..and the chicken wings there!
7) kenny rogers Mac & Cheese. ooh~ yum yum!
8) universal studios!!!!!!
9) sentosa...
lastly, 10) common tests to be over ASAP!



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1 more thing which i found out and want to share!!!
don't go OMG~~~ okays.. haha!
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is this really going to be the future of singapore mrt line?
if it's true, don't say elderly, even I also can't figure out if i'll unds and get lost or not. haha!


but i think it'll be real. but don't know when will everything be done.
maybe when i'm a ripe 100 years old haha!

Ben&Jerry's :-)

This B&J lasts me 1 month! Not bad. Haha!

'conversation-continuation disorder'.

well, basically, 'conversation-continuation disorder'
is like a problem which, some people might have, causes
a communication or conversation breakdown.
and this leads to some problems, big or small, which
is kind of annoying and it might change some things
in your life. and yes, it may involve cold wars.

and i am a victim of 'conversation-continuation disorder'.
and not proud of that.
for me, since young, i'm not a out-going type of person
to people i just know, or towards people i'm not that close with.
so, i tend to keep quiet, if possible, all the way. :)
and to me it's quite a habit..hard to change.
and when people talk to me, people whom i seldom meet and talk to,
i tend to answer straight to their question. like a one-word answer
or a one-phrase answer..things like that.
and since young, i don't find it a problem to me.
but as i grow older, i tend to meet more people, so i should
become more sociable. but for me to become sociable at this point
of time, i find it difficult.
i won't say it's impossible but rather possible if you try hard enough.

so, in order to not make things even worser, i should
try to communicate more. but can someone tell me how to
actually continue a conversation with people whom you're
not that familiar with?

last day of term 1 of sem 1.

today's the last day of sem 1 term 1 :)

and tmr and sunday i'll be working.

a hectic week i guess. cos my study break has started.
and i have to work.and study at the same time.
hmmm...

but before i start my studying mood, i shall enjoy for 1 day first :)
so monday, i'll be watching nightmare on elm street with baby
then dinner at arab st plus shisha-ing!!!
it's been really long since my last visit to arab st.
miss the spicy chicken wings hehehe!




anyways, ytd baby and i went to meet baby's friends
and watched the a-team movie.
not that bad..it was funny and exciting at the same time.
so for people like me, who seldom watch tt type of shows, i give
it a 4/5. not tt bad right? :)


somehow, i miss school now. not because of studying
or teachers or what ever but because of the food!!! :)
i miss gecko, south canteen's bubble tea, tutu kueh etc.
oh man..

oh great.

all's fine now :)




and i just checked out St Regis's hotel website and
i saw the price for 1 night stay at the deluxe room is a minimum
of $460.
but the interior is so damn damn beautiful, okay!
anyway, i checked that because for my 21st birthday,
i have decided 2 years in advance that i want to celebrate
by having a night stay at my favorite hotel, the St Regis :)
yay!!!~
but the price is like freaking steep lahs..
hmm.. 2 years time.. can i save that much money?
i'm going to try my best! hehehe...
:)
i am so so looking forward to that day. when i turn 21.
wah damn bloody old lah! hahaha!!!
my upcoming 19th birthday is like the last 'step-1' birthday already.. :(
and next year i'm gonna promote to 'step-2'.
somehow, sometimes, i wish i could stay forever 18..
and sometimes, i wish i can forward my age to 21.
and sometimes i wish i was older than 18 or 21, so that i can get married.
hahaha! weird thoughts :)

i'm starting to hate my personality once again!

it's just a dinner.
and tomorrow you can meet him.
it's not like today's going to be the last time seeing him.
so what's wrong with gg home today?

i don't know.


seriously, i don't know what i've been saying and doing
these past few days.
my personality is getting on my nerves.
why can't i just take things easily? why must
i always become moody once something crops up
when a decision is made?

today i'm supposed to go to baby's place after school.
but last minute baby's friends ask him to join them for dinner..
so i can't go anymore.
and my personality hates last minute notices so
my reaction to baby once i heard that was, sian.
but it's nobody's fault.


i guess i reacted that way because i wanted to see baby today
cos of what happened ytd. regarding the redang trip.
i needed to meet up with baby to clear my messed up mind.
so when i heard tt today i wont be able to meet him,
i felt very bored and a little pissed off for these last min dinner.


but now, baby called me and said i can go with them for dinner tonight.
but somehow, a part of me feels very guilty, as well as irritated.
guilty over how i think of myself only.
and irritated over my reactions today.




it's just not my day.

what has gotten into you, demi?? like, seriously!

i seriously do not know what has gotten into me..
but i've been kind of paranoid ever since baby told me about
he gg overseas with his guy friends this coming july.
for a girl, being paranoid when the bf is gg overseas with
other ppl, without her, is a normal thing.
but being over-paranoid? nah nah! not a good way to let him go.
and now, my mind is slowly going blank cos from the start,
i already decided to let him go..with a clear and happy mind.
i want him to enjoy himself there, seriously!
but just a little part of me can't bear to let him go by himself..
maybe just because i'm over worried for him that anything might
just happen without notice..and he can't take care of himself well..
and i feel tt if i'm there, at least there's my this pair of eyes looking over him.

am i being too selfish? thinking about my own feelings only and not his too?

i really wish to accompany him there.
but there's a few reasons which i decide not to.
because of school, money-prob, personal stuffs and also for me to
go to a place like redang island where what you mostly spend your time on is
water sports and only that, it's simply not worth it. :)
i don't like the sea.
so in the end i still want baby to carry on with this trip.

but...
this stupid mouth of mine, just said some stuffs to baby again
about his redang island trip, which makes him think twice, think thrice whether
to go or not.
and thinking back, why did i say all those???
just feel like slapping my damn mouth a million times right now!
what the heck did you say all those for, demi?!
i want him to go happily, without worries, and here i am, making him
confused whether to go or not to go..


to hell, all these thoughts of mine!

common tests are nearing...
in approximately 1 month time.
ahhhs!!!

got to start preparation next week onwards.
then i'll have 3 weeks to study.
should be enough :)
before starting studies, i'm gonna take a short break with
baby..going to jb for a day..shop, relax, eat. :D


next week's last week of this term.
how fast time passes by...



now i'm catching this new U.S. drama called 'The Good Wife'.
kind of complicated and too 'chim' for me to unds..
cause it's a lawyer type of plot. and lawyer's life is so hard to unds.
haha! but i think it'll be a nice show.

tomorrow i'm gonna work. baby too :)
after that, maybe hanging out around marina sq walk with baby.
then sunday gotta do ushering in church.




i miss baby so much!

a boring wednesday morning.


sitting here at nyp macdonald alone, watching Autumn's concerto & ANTM cycle 13.
youtube loading so so so damn slowly.
have to pause like every 3mins or so. gosh!
only can blame nyp's wireless network speed.

if only i have my own wireless adapter. :(


reached here at 9.10am.
last night stayed at baby's place.
so left with him in the early morning.
cannot decide what to have for bkfast from 9.10am till now. zzz!
i keep smelling the waffles. smells so so gd.
i guess i'm gonna get 1 cheese waffle and a cheeseburger l8r :))
i've been eating so much! omggg~


tmr's baby offday.
thought of going to watch prince of persia with him.
but cathay doesn't show tomorrow's show timings. argh!