A very long hiatus from blogging... how I missed having the time to actually pen down
my thoughts or just a small blognote. Ever since I started working full-time, I've missed out
on alot of fun.
Getting back my friends and leading my 21 yr old life, or maybe how a 21 yr old should
have kind of life has been great but I never thought it could lead to unhappiness too.
Balancing friends and bf to me is a really difficult thing to do.. it may sound easy but to me it's not.
I have the kind of mindset that friends to me is the world.. the biggest part of my life.
I would do anything for my friends.. and tell everything to them.
It's a good thing, yes. But once one has a companion, a bf/gf, I guess priority should be them?
Or maybe a balanced out priority to both friends and bf.
Because of this unbalance in my life, I actually faced a big situation in my relationship.
I chose to accompany my friends more, and actually neglected my bf.
In a sense that I didn't message my bf that often, or tell him where I went & stuffs.
I didn't take this thing too seriously until we had a time break.
I became so stressed up and went out late almost everyday, partying and drinking.
Was I having fun? Yes and no.
I even met a new guy friend, whom I slowly found out his real personality.
He was a jerk, indeed.
Ignoring all comments from my close friends, family & colleagues, I still contact him.
But I was at the losing end, little did I know. I was a very big fool, stupidly believing in that guy.
If only I had listened to my friends and family, all these wouldn't happened.
There wouldn't be a time break between me and my bf of 3.5 years of relationship..
There wouldn't be a regret in my life, the biggest regret I will ever have to suffer.
It took me one whole month to realize what's really good for me, and who has always been
the one I should always hold on to and never let go.
Take this as a lesson learnt, learnt the hard way.
Thank God for lighting the path, guiding me through as I prayed to him.
This is definitely the right path I should take, back to my bf and not letting go anymore.
Fun can take place, but know my limits.. balance out friends time and bf time..
I may not be ready to be tied down but I must open my eyes big to the world outside.
Never make wrong choices anymore.. chances don't come knocking easily.
Thank you to all my friends for the many words of advice, sorry that I didn't listen
from the start...
Thank you to my family for being such good listening ear and guiding me through..
Lastly, a very big Thanks to my bf... for the chance you've given to me..
I know this would be the one & only chance and I'll definitely make full use of it.
I'm very very sorry for the hurt I caused in you.. I know how much apology is not enough
to mend your heart, but I've learnt my lesson and I greatly regret my actions to you.
I love you.
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